Welcome to my Nightmare

So, the subject line here isn't very creative, but it's the most accurate and realistic one I could think of at the moment. This is a journal of my life an ardent pacifist military wife. A life of worry, conflict and contradiction. "Pacifism is being willing to acknowledge our own capacity for violence and to struggle against it every single day; in much the same way that an alcoholic fights every day not to take that drink. Pacifism is nothing less than a series of choices make every day, every hour, every minute to resist our violences and reject our privledges." This is my piss-poor paraphrasing of a Utah Phillips-quoting-Amon Hennessy quote. But it explains my mindset and my choices and my name for this blog. I hope you come along with me...